DAEDELUS: THE VOID OF YOURSELF
Collage by Daiana Feuer, in honor of the Kubrick Ball, starring Daedelus!
Tonight, Daedelus is performing at LACMA’s Halloween party, the Kubrick masquerade ball, so it seemed only appropriate that we should find out what’s his favorite scary movie and paste him into a scene from Kubrick’s creepiest film. It also happens to be his birthday today. Aside from being born on the best holiday, he’s got a lot to celebrate. He should pat himself on the back and cover himself in birthday cake. Or actually stick a bunch of cake inside one of those Victorian coats of his, then have a bunch of people pat him on the back and let it all smush against his body. Only then will he truly understand that his new EP, “Looking Ocean,” is awesome. This pretty collection of songs is being released for FREE download by ScionAV. Interview by Daiana Feuer.
Are you often called upon to play on Halloween?
I do often play on Halloween. It’s my birthday actually so it ends up being a bit of a to-do for me. I love Halloween though, its creeps and its possibilities.
Do you feel connected to the dark side?
I flirted with being in plenty of goth bands as a kid. Aside from having a general mopey nature, I’m not a fan of gore per se. There’s an exception for Halloween. I think people are tantalized by darker urges but they need an outlet. That’s what this holiday is all about.
I like that in this town Halloween is a week-long event too.
Yes, and then if you include the Day of the Dead. More than just entertainment, it has a special connection to people in this town, more than other places. But deep in there, there’s a yearning for ritual. I like how here it’s returned to some religious roots to a degree. So you can experience the duality of life and death. But for me it’s a triality. One day closer to your death, limping to your grave. I’m just a few minutes closer every year. It keeps everything grounded. I feel it’s a wonderful time for celebration but there’s a little tinge of darkness. People go to parties and events. They exist in a way that they are always courting pleasure. But though I am given to wonderful moments, it’s not just fun, it’s work. You have to deal with the comedown. You have a wonderful night and then its over. Or it’s just begun and you don’t know what to expect. As a performer you can have an excellent night or bad night and you have to get through it. A lot of people don’t have to experience that. They get the happy happy and not the hard part.
Why does performing sometimes make a person want to hide in a hole afterwards?
You put yourself out there. You exercise emotional muscles that you aren’t used to. It’s horrendous you are really exposing yourself. As such it’s the vulnerability moment. I think one of the reasons people get addicted to drugs or sex is because there’s nowhere to put the emotions. That’s why actors are so fucked up. Looking too deeply into the void of yourself.
Do you consider creating a space for people to place their emotions in your music, whether they’re feeling good or bad?
Harmonically there is always intention but even if a musician intends it or not, when you title a song or a record it adds to this sort of layering of feeling. I’m a fan of instrumental music because of how open it can be. You don’t have to have everything sown up. I like when people have the imagination to do something with it. I love when people have inappropriate meanings for the songs. I might have a dark song and people think it’s happy go lucky. Who am I to argue? They have ownership of it. If they take the time to listen, it becomes theirs. It’s hard as a an artist to let go of your creation, but its an essential part of creating.
Would I be right in guessing you have an appreciation for film music? Your own creations are so cinematic.
Oh, you’re spot on with that. I love film and I love music in film especially. People really celebrate music in film. It has the script to be the lyric and the music is just the emotion. Kubrick as a director does not set my soul on fire. But the music in his film has such expression and the films themselves are dramatically different from one to another. But it’s still him. It still has his fingerprint all over it. There’s famous actors but it feels like its all him. He was a man of his time but he also created the mood that people lived in. The look and feel of his movies are the look and feel of the moment in time that we look back at. Now to celebrate that look and feel on Halloween, it’s the smallest way to pay respect.
Are you going to dress up for the Kubrick ball?
I’m going to be a judge at the costume party! I got to come with something though.
Being someone who celebrates expression through his clothes regularly, how do you feel perceived by others?
I know by dressing up as often as I do, it’s easy to think of it as costume. There’s an element of it. There’s a look and feel of the moment I am experiencing, this dandy look. It’s not a dandy look for me, it’s an aspiration. It’s something I could do every day. I don’t care what that makes me. It’s too warm to wear a vest and crevasse every day though. I’m attracted to the restraint of it, to the directness of it. Onstage, we are afforded the space to embody what we aspire to. When you’re on stage, you can command the space. For people to have the opportunity to step outside of themselves, to let people to know they are experiencing something outside their expectation. I don’t have to be limited. I can be outside of people’s preconceptions. Preconceptions are the jail we all live in.
What is your responsibility as a performer?
There was a period of time when I didn’t know what I wanted to represent. I just knew I had to create. Then later I had an aspiration. Music is a service. Sometimes that service is one of just creating a soundtrack to their libation, to their dance party. I understand that. My job is to inspire. That keeps me sane. When I am on stage, working, I am showing them a way, a possibility. If I do that, I am successful, no matter what my sales are, my small footprint afforded me as a performer. If I can do this one thing, then I feel good about my day’s work.
What do you see in your music? What does your world look like?
Even though I dabble in electronics I feel it’s very natural, like clockworks. There’s pulleys and machinations and they work together in concert. When one thing is doing beats in one way they are holding hands with another thing doing melody. They are springs, they are chattering birds. They’re springs in a pocket watch.
What’s your favorite scary movie?
Some people don’t consider it scary, but Akira, the anime from 88 or 89. It’s scary because it’s impossible, an impossible fantasy of a dark dystopian future, but we are living it. We are half a breath away from that happening. It’s a wonderfully scary film for that reason. Battle Royale is also awesome. It has a strong message. We’re almost there. It’s the ones that are close to possible that are scary. That’s why a zombie apocalypse is so scary.